Bad Days :(

I know how some days things just don’t go your way: bad days.

Those days where you wish that you could just crawl back into bed, and fall asleep, and skip to the next day like they do in The Sims.

I know everyone has had one or two of these in our life. The days where things you want to happen don’t, and your brain acts like its a potato processor, crashing every now and then and needing a restart. How everything you do turns out wrong, and people get mad at you for just being in a certain place at a certain time. Those days that all your jobs are being done by others, leaving you some free time doing nothing cause you have this free time in your schedule in your mind. How every person you talk to seems to avoid you, or doesn’t want to talk to you and all. And when you need someone to talk to, they’re busy..

Sadly, today is just one of those days. I knew from the moment i woke up things weren’t going to go well today since just as i woke up, i banged my toe on the edge of my bed, then my parents seem to get mad at every thing they tell me to do, and i keep getting into fights with my siblings. I don’t know if there’s something that happened that i don’t know of, or my brain is on the fritz again, or its just really a bad day today for me. :/

I really hope that tomorrow would be different. Really hope so…


What’s the deal with M.U.(mutual understanding)?

Ok, i just noticed today that most of my friends or people i know is getting into this so called “M.U” and i’m just wondering why? What’s so great about it anyway? Its just a “i like you and you like me back” situatuion.

Ok, for those who are not familiar with this, but MU is a kind of relationship when the girl or boy confesses to their romantic interest, and they confess as well that they feel the same way. When this happens, they go off and telling people that they’re in a MU relationship.
But, let me just clear this. Its a simple relationship without trust, commitment, and that comes with a relationship aside from the ones stated above.

For me, i think this is a stupid idea, and i’d kill whoever thought of the entire concept in the first place. When i was still in high school, sure that MU existed, but back then, we treated it as a “should i answer him and let him take me out, and risk it all or say no” period after the confession where the two barely talk, the girl thinks well of her choice, and the guy prepares for the worse. Seriously, i liked it better that way than now. Why? Mainly because i feel the whole MU thing is like some sort of safety eject button system that allows the the couple to be all sweet and all, but the power to do the same to others. Its like an open relationship; we’re together, but we’re not just sleeping with her/him.

Ok, to admit, i have never been in this situation before, but i have been in a relationship before, and i find it quite lame. If you love him/her and are ready for a relationship, make it one. If not, let him know, but let it be just that. Don’t flirt, don’t act sweet, don’t let the guy hope that with patience, he’ll get something out of you.


But, then again, the people i see are of a different age and generation from us. I forgot that there are different norms for different generations. But, still, its sad to see how the next generation seems a bit too eager to get into relationships, when it really isn’t just a small thing; its a big deal and takes a lot of effort to keep.

I guess they’ll have to learn that the hard way :/

If i were selected “tribute” in the hunger games


Ok, i know, Hunger games has been out for quite some time now, but i’ve decided to make a post anyway.

Well, mainly because just the other day, Me, mom, and my two siblings sat together to have a late night movie viewing, and the movie we watched was (obviously) “The hunger games”

Its already my 3rd time watching it, but still excited me just the same as the first. Then, just as Katnis comes out of “the tube”, my sis asked me: “what would happen if you were in the hunger games?”

At first, i doubt it, thinking I’m sure i’d die at the first minutes of the game. But, if i was said by my mentor “don’t rush in to get supplies. Its going to be a blood bath in there” i think i’ll be fine.

I guess, first off, i’ll charge for one of the basic equipment bags, trying my best to stay alive. I don’t think i would go for any weapons, for i am not confident i can use any (kind of like Peeta). If i survive, i go and hide, hoping no one would find me, or get killed.

If anyone does try, i will try to defend myself, killing them if necessary. I don’t think i would end up teaming up, in fear of getting back-stabbed. And, if ever i survive(which is much unlikely) and live until the finalè, then i probably would be mauled to death by the death hounds.

Luckily, i don’t live in Panem(which sounds better of as a pastry brand) and not in a dystopia society such as that.

Confessions….the sweetness of it all


Oh confessions, the bitter sweet feeling when a person finally manages to sum up the courage to tell that special someone of theirs how much they mean to them.

Sure, to most people, its not something much for some people who can win a girl/guy’s heart easily, or some others that the person just falls for them without even trying. But, there are some people that isn’t that lucky, and some are way too scared to even make contact with the opposite sex. But, then again, that’s where most of us fall in.

Admit it, not every guy is a playboy, nor every girl is a slut that can play with a guy. Most of us are simply inexperienced, or just trying to get lucky with love. But, for me, the sweetest thing for these people is the confession.

Sure, its not guaranteed a guy/girl will reciprocate their feelings. But, the sweetest part of it is that they simply want “to let them know”. That they take on the fact that the person they like won’t feel the same, and yet they chose to tell them other wise. The bitter part of it all though, is that some people tend to deny it completely, which is somewhat painful for the person.

In the end, it all comes to how a person sees the situation. Some think its a waste of time if they won’t reciprocate, while others think of it as an achievement itself to let them know.

But, for me, being a hopeless romantic, its quite sweet to watch it in action

To my good friend Salman, good job 🙂

At the End of the School Year….

Just awhile ago, we had just finished the last set of hardships for the school year: Our finals. So far, i haven’t received any of my test results, but i am quite confident i passed. But, the thing that felt like a big burden to me, was the fact that some of my closest friends will be leaving by next year.

I know, saying goodbye is never easy for anyone. Whether its a friend, a family member, or a lover, it never is easy to say the words “good bye”. We humans, as social beings, are known to develop these so called “Bonds”. Trust, attachment, feelings, and memories are all kept into these bonds, and the more of these present, the stronger the bond. This is the reason why some friends are still friends even after a couple of years of absence. But, you can’t help but feel sad at the fact that someone you’re used to seeing everyday will no longer be there.

I too, experienced this before, and again now. When a close friend of mine would probably be leaving me; someone i’m used to being with almost everyday of my life. Who have solved some of my problems, and asked my help to fix hers. The rebelliousness we both had knowing that neither of our fried groups accepted us in it, and we decided to go away from them. The way she seemed to always be there, and i always be there just the same.

And now, i’ve heard she’ll be leaving, along with a few other friends i have created these so called “bonds” with. It would really be hard to get used to the fact that they are no longer here anymore. But, i would never forget the times we’ve shared together, the arguements, and the lessons they’ve taught. The changes they made us do, and the mistakes we’ve done to each other.

It would just be a big change for me, knowing that they aren’t there anymore. But, then again, there were a lot of other people who have left our lives. Everyone has their entrances and exits in our story called Life. They enter, change us, then leave once they’re done. Its just how things go.

“Don’t worry, we’ll meet again. Its a small world. And, i’m sure we will one day, by a chance of faith, bump into each other again. So, lets not say goodbye, let’s say “see you soon”. Because, i’m sure we will one day, just you see.”